Just an inquiry...

 Hey, I have fallen on some hard times, and was wondering if any of you lovely people were interested in buying any One Piece P.O.P figures or other merch.  (If this isn't allowed, just delete it)  I also have some LUNA doujin, so if there is a general interest I will post up what I have.  Just let me know! It would help me out a lot.
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My laptop is back and just like before!!!! They didn't even have to wipe my hard drive!!! YAY!!!

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    ecstatic ecstatic

Lazy Bullet Point Entry

Haven't said much in a while.

Photobucket New Job: Assistant manager at Forever 21. Like the job and the people I work with. Wish I still made as much as I did before.

Photobucket Computer broke. That's why I haven't been online/aim or leaving comments or doing much on Facebook. Sent it to HP, so hopefully they'll fix it for free.

Photobucket Got off my birth control, and I feel a lot better. I guess this is good, since I don't have anymore insurance.

Photobucket Really hating working opposite hours of Dan. I don't even get to talk to him some days, and thats depressing.

Photobucket Living with Dans family is getting really old, really fast. I hope Dan can come to some kind of coinclusion with what he wants to do, so we can get the hell out of here.

Photobucket Got glasses again for the first time since I started college. They're cute.

Photobucket I'm almost current in One Piece manga ( I read 510 chapters! wow!)

Photobucket Miss Japan more and more every single day.

Photobucket Stressed out about money, and feeling like it's impossible to save a dime.

Photobucket Want to visit friends, but lack the budget to do so. I wish I was better at letting people know I cared about them.

I have a general feeling of malaise, and lack of motivation to do much of anything. I want to move, but I can't afford it. I want to use my degree, and I don't know how. I don't even have some unrealistic plan to try for. I think being stuck here in this box sucks out all of my motivation. I think thats half of Dans problem too. I want a real life. If I have to work like a grown up, I'd like to have a life like one too, plz k thx.

~Stuck in a rut, Carson.
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    A sleeping Dan Howard



Although the subject of this post is very pirate-esque,
this post is less than awesome.

A lot of things haven't been going very well for me lately,
and i've been very stressed out.

Work has been less than fun, and i don't think I am cut out to be a store manager.
This is ok, since apparently my district manager thinks the same thing, since I was demoted
on Tuesday. I will be a co-manager, and transferred back the the other store for more training.
Apparently they are opening another store in the area soon, and want to train me
to be a better store manager and then give me that store.

Well, I am done with this place. If I'm gonna take a paycut, it might as well be someplace
I don't hate going to everyday, or at least has direct deposit.

I don't even know what to look for.
I don't feel good enough at anything to look for something specialized.

I know i get a lot of praise from you guys, and i'm not saying I don't appreciate it,
but I am totally unprepared to do any work in my 'field' (fashion)

I cannot draw or sketch well, which is no good for designing.

Even if I found somewhere that wanted me to do sewing work, I don't have
much formal training in sewing, or couture finishings.
I can sew, yes, but not much better than the average hobbyist.

My pattern making is beginner at best, and involves a lot of math.

In short, my degree, (that I can't even afford to pay off) is a joke.

So I sit here and wonder why the hell I spent so much money on school.
I was convinced as soon as I graduated i'd have a great job and paying everything off would be no problem.

Well, here I am.
Stuck in a job I hate, and taking a paycut because i'm not good at THAT either.

At least it was paying my bills. I feel like an idiot for having invested so much money in college.

I can never regret going to college because I met a lot of great people, and had a lot of great times.

However I can't just help but feel like a moron for paying so much money for something I don't even have, that I can't even use.

What am I meant to DO with this life?

Sometimes I wish I could just make enough money to move out, get married, and be a wife.

Sometimes I feel like I was meant to do something great , that would leave an impression on the world.

Sometimes I wish I had never gone to school and could have just invested that money into traveling around the world,
working odd jobs and making just enough to get by.

I am so confused and upset with myself.

I don't know what my passion is anymore.
I don't feel good enough at anything.

As cliche as it all sounds, I feel like capitalism's personal bitch.

Is this really what our lives are for?

I miss my family and my friends.
I never get to see a majority of people i care about anymore.

Right now I feel like I don't care what job I get, as long as I can still get time off to see my family,
my friends, and do all the fun things everyone else still seems to be able to do.
I have missed so many things because of this stupid job.

I feel like my thoughts have no resolution, so i'm going to stop.

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    The ticking clock
Wonder Pets

Chirin no Suzu

So I just watched the darkest Sanrio film ever, Chirin no Suzu. (Bell of Chirin)

It's summary where I watched it:

"A little lamb's life is turned upside down by the wolf that killed his mother. He seeks to avenge his mother, but in order to defeat the wolf, he must become one."

Ok. So little Unico-esque sheep goes on an adventure of growing up. Thats what this tell me.

Well, let me just show you.

We go from this:


To this:


Thats a pretty drastic difference.

It's a 46 min long movie that can be found here:

For those of you who want to watch it, go there.
(You don't need an account to watch one thing, only if you watch a few things in a row.)

For those who don't,

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So yea. I dunno. I was just surprised.

This week has sucked hardcore. I need a new job, for serious.
Half my staff is gone because some asshole from 5,7,9 came in
on a day I wasn't working and made a pitch to my employees.
My one assistant manager left, and recruited the rest of my management staff
and some of my sales girls behind my back.

So now I am going to have a brand new management staff for the holiday season,
whom I need to train properly by Black Friday.

Yea Right.



Someone save me.

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Chi, adorable, cats, anime, cute

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Just so everybody is aware, I lost my phone like a putz and have suspended my service until I find it or decide what to do.
So don't get worried if you call and it says my number isn't in service :p


Halloween pics to come later when I am not tired and frustrated!


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    Dan playing Cave Story

I know it's early but....

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
Kitten0Face goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as The Queen of Hearts.
elyse gives you 16 red grapefruit-flavoured gummy worms.
explodeintobats gives you 6 milky white spearmint-flavoured pieces of taffy.
geraniumred gives you 18 teal cherry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
goldfive tricks you! You get a clothespin.
gomu_ningen gives you 8 dark blue pineapple-flavoured wafers.
itriedbut tricks you! You get a wet rag.
kijokuppy tricks you! You get a broken balloon.
kingofthebryans gives you 1 dark blue lemon-flavoured gummy bats.
makonurikoryoko tricks you! You get a 3.5-inch floppy disc.
motokonokoi gives you 3 green lemon-flavoured gummy bats.
Kitten0Face ends up with 52 pieces of candy, a clothespin, a wet rag, a broken balloon, and a 3.5-inch floppy disc.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

Good haul this year. The only fund I'll probably get to have this Halloween, since everyone requested off before I even started working there. *sigh* I know of no parties or anything either. Boo.
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    Druaga game music
Chi, adorable, cats, anime, cute

Baaa Baaa Meme sheep, have you any w00l?

Haiku2 for kitten0face
sweat am i who
you think about in bed with
you what would be fun
Created by Grahame

Haiku2 for kitten0face
also thank you dan
and thom for being there
for me as a muse
Created by Grahame

Haiku2 for kitten0face
all busy but guess
what it only takes five mins
to fix it to no
Created by Grahame

Haiku2 for kitten0face
the title of your
mind again 4 two people
touching lips hands on
Created by Grahame

Haiku2 for kitten0face
again for sale
a lot of fun to make a
stupid ass cleaning
Created by Grahame

Haiku2 for kitten0face
sent to me woo see
i'm not going to be kind
of like colorforms
Created by Grahame

Haiku2 for kitten0face
they fear this may be
the end earldude3 but then
he see's something else
Created by Grahame

Haiku2 for kitten0face
i just know that i
enjoy http https http http that
is all for now stay
Created by Grahame
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Sleep LuNa



The pay is nice, but I don't really like it.
I have no idea where to start looking again or what I really want to do.
It's so depressing to realize that I don't have a 'dream'.
I feel stuck in this job, and I don't like it.
I don't know how to change this.
I don't know what to do.
I just know that I want this to change,
I need it to change.

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    Dan sleepin'